1.13.20

Entry 07

Still connected.

Still a part of all that has left me on this journey.

I find myself feeling all of you.

I can feel the distance, the emotions, the anger, the love, resentment, nostalgia, all the cords wrapped around the memories that colour my mind.

We swim through different waves now but somehow, I feel the weight of all of them. I feel myself pulled in all the directions that you have each chosen to dance in. I have consistently struggled to tear myself out of the crevices in these souls. Perhaps because I never truly wanted to. I find myself still one with all those that I have chosen to love & those I did not choose to. Now, a shift. For no longer is this tangle desirable.

I am so grateful to have kept a home within you for so long, to have found love in so many forms

This is it, loves

This is the release

This clemency moves you and I to a place we could never truly explain

A feeling so free and filled with warmth that it is to only be shared through an energy that is ours.

Thank you for holding space for me

This is the place now

This is the moment

Our own moments

Weightless, white light, filling that chasm

A love, A warmth, A feeling of our own

You as You

I as I

Time to go home